too self-centered to be suicidal:
"if you take me away, what is there?"
with a pure love for his physicality,
the question of death will come up differently.
what drives this logic?
a remnant of the nobility
will have to take up an occupation.
a question of responsibility;
can it be a question of comfort?
he doesn't have to worry about social conventions.
but he does.
he can't really pick up his pen.