online literature since 2007

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

From Manic to Depressed in Less Than a Minute

I try to find courage in
the strangest places, but my mind
it races. I'm pacing and pacing but
it's so hard to face this.

This fear of letting go,
of falling,
of letting my heart sink
like a stone to the pit of my stomach.

Knowing no one will catch me.
No one can catch me.

And this is how it always goes:

Panic.
Realization.
Dramatization.
Depression.
Blank and Lifeless.